Aware.

How do you change your nature? How do you forcefully become a better person? Is it determined that we must act the way we grow up acting? One thing I don't understand is that when we're aware of something we're doing that we don't like, it still seems quite difficult to change it; I mean, as far as our character or personalities. I can't imagine that too many people actually enjoy treating others badly. They have to be aware that they do it. So why would they continue doing it, knowing that it's happening? I fall victim to this as well. I hate a lot of things I do. I try to convince myself that I need to change those things. I try to convince myself that I'll be able to accept those things that make me angry or that I insult. No matter how many times I think that and try, it doesn't change. It seems like it's just the way that I am and it's not something that I can change. When I realize that, it makes me think that I'm a bad person or that I don't like myself. Too many thoughts on my mind. Who am I?